By Shawanna Funches
I have no hope in life
I say to myself I’m a disappointment
It feels like that sometimes
To me it brings anger
To others it brings them something to gossip about
I look in my mom’s eyes
I see pain and sorrow
I just can’t wait for tomorrow
I listen to my favorite song all day everyday
It inspires me
Better day than yesterday / i just take it day by day / never hearing what they say i just do it my way / By sza
That song makes me have hope
What i do in school compares to home is different
My sister tries hard to make me express my feelings out loud
But i don’t want no dealings
I know I’m human but somethings you just have to let go
Not me
I can’t let go
I barely can forgive somethings
You call me disrespectful, disobedient, spoiled and rotten
I call it saying what’s true, correcting your mistakes so nobody cant hold that against you
I don’t look at people as adults
But they are
I look at them as people who are like me just with high standards and everyone being scared of them
It’s no hope
My dad gets angry at me because i have attitudes
Why not ask why
Why not try talking
You just assume everyone is happy
But not I
There is no hope
Tough love isn’t love all the time
Knowing you being there isn’t nothing like understanding why you there
I just want somebody to understand me for once
You don’t get me i always get blamed
People only tell you what they want you to hear but not the whole story.
That’s the same for me and i know that it’s no hope
So why cry